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Tuesday, October 26, 2021

A Bird on the Edge of Space



A BIRD ON THE EDGE OF SPACE.

 
Hold fast to dreams,
For if dreams die,
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams.
For if dreams go,
Life is a barren field
Covered with snow.
         -Langston Hughes
 
 
 The above is a draft written in July of 2013. I think I will finish it today. 

"SHE TOOK THE LEAP 
AND BUILT HER
WINGS ON THE WAY DOWN."  
 
The sign was posted on a house
just a mile down from my home,
in between the Phinney Ridge and Fremont neighborhoods, nailed up
on the wall between two doors of a duplex.  

The duplex still stands, 
the sign long gone, 
as I suspect the tenant who posted it. 
The neighborhoods have changed a bit, the result 
 
of progress and prosperity of industry, and yet, 
strangely, now slightly bled of beauty
and creativity. The folks who live there now
are less likely
 
to pin up a hand painted
piece of wood with the stencil of poesy. 

Dreams still stand, though. 
The arrogance of ambitions, the drive to go up, up, up
is still nestled in the hearts amongst us. 

In me. 
Is it also in you?

Currently, I'm in a tumble of urges
prompted by a lifelong dream. 
Seemingly
I am quite good
 
at failure. Um, failures.
Also, seemingly, I've become
convulsively, amazingly persistent in the drive
to keep dreaming.

Keep going. 
 
It's what makes this life switch the mundane
repetitive acts of eating, shitting and sleeping
to the divine push to make rainbows out of piss storms. 

Girl Icarus, 
you were never so good 
 
as the false belief that you could 
out shine your wings
in the orbits of the sun.
 
   
 
             - RQ Bella 

Sunday, October 24, 2021

BLOG like you give a damn

DAMN.

I haven't blogged in a while (ok, ok, YEARS.) 

And I also haven't read blogs for that same amount of time, but there are some really cool real life people doing real life cool style stuff, and they've been on it this whole time. 

When I first stumbled onto fashion blogs, the ones that really caught me were ones that I actually could relate to- only they had tremendous personal style- something special. Desiree, Dusk Devi, Vix, and Reva springs to mind- blogs possibly long gone, people still rockin' their style but not necessarily in the venue I "discovered" them. 

I'll tell you what I look for- people with great style but the focus is about expressing their personality not the latest trends. Style over fashion, I say, and bonus points for thrifted, second-hand and vintage shoppers. Extra bonus points if they are over 40 years of age, and good at photography. 

I enjoy photo/image heavy content especially if the photography has good lighting, strong composition and a memorable image. Clever, thoughtful posts are always appreciated. 

Do you blog? 

I'd like to thank a couple of style bloggers who have fun sustainable style and who have been so kind to leave comments here. For some reason, I can't figure out how to reply in the comments- so Sheila, and Ann, thank you for taking the time visit and leave your comments. You give a damn.

What blogs if any, inspire you and your personal style?

Thursday, October 14, 2021

SNEEZING Selfie


ACH-CHOO, BOO. 

Behold: an awkward capture of myself in full sneeze. I think I love it because it's the antithesis of the purpose of the "selfie," a capture usually of an overwhelming flattering content. This selfie is so very NOT FLATTERING. 

I'll confess: I'm pretty fucking good at taking a flattering selfie. In fact NOBODY takes a more flattering picture of moi, than moi. FACT: I don't know of another human being who has the patience or willingness to milk out a good angle, perfect lighting or the persistence to keep taking picture  upon picture to get THAT PHOTO: the one that makes me look VERY GOOD. 

But I'm a sucker for an interesting photo, and to be honest, flattering photos especially selfies are often BORING. Because omission is boring and perfection is dull. 

That said, trust me, I'll be posting some flattering self portraits and selfies because, well, no one else seems interested in doing it. 

(For even more disgustingly flatteringly proliferation of selfies, do check out my Instagramz here)

How do you feel about taking selfies? Are you into it? Do you do it? Any tip or tricks of the trade? 


Monday, October 11, 2021

OUTFIT POST: My Unyielding Melancholy

MY UNYIELDING MELANCHOLY

Worn this past summer- 

I like the play of the graphic black + white with the romantic pink florals.
The sweater was a gift from Joyce. It's great for Seattle summer layering.
The tank and the shoes are new items, and both found me via Instagram ads, lol.
The skirt was a vintage Etsy find.

NOW WEARING

  • pink floral cotton cardigan sweater- GIFTED
  • black graphic tank- BOREDWALK
  • vintage black + pink rose floral maxi skirt- ETSY
  • checkerboard chunky sandals- ALOHAS 
 
 

Monday, September 27, 2021

Nothing to Everything

 

Nothing to Everything
     -dedicated to Beauty Abounds

You are the bones of mountains,
the juice of fountains-
the eyes that have it.

Now yell it. 

Boo, make do with what you have to do.
Be fire's ash, the tsunami's smash-
a moonlit rabbit.

Girl, do NOT quell it;
you can not foretell it.

Make yourself at home
in Tiamet's bones-
Sister Splash, you are not alone.

We mend, and so upend our mistakes.
Permit the mountains to quake,
monsoon 
under the moon.
 
And let the cold river sing-

You are nothing....
until you are everything.

Wednesday, September 8, 2021

Good to See You.

 

Oh hi. 

It feels a little like logging back into MySpace and seeing the empty rooms and remnants of an old party. We did have fun, didn't we? 

Lots has happened since we last spoke, and I'm sure as much on your end of things, and rather than clog up a ghostly channel on the past, let's move forward. I've been feeling an urge to just take a step back, to NOT keep up with the newest, the latest, the up-to-datest of Tik-ity Toks, Reels, Feels and Eels. I do appreciate SOCIAL MEDIA but man, am I tired of it ruling how I engage with fellow human beings. 

So I'm going to get a little old fashioned, aka old school, but who knows how long this will be the deal. All I know, is that I LOVED connecting with other back in the "blogging days," how creating was just as much fun as the posting, and I'm going to send a little tendril out here to check in. 

I hope you've been safe and healthy and good.